this is a series of 12 in chronological order. lately (2023), after a breakup, i’d been thinking about why i hadn’t felt any sense of home in my life. the idea of “home” is disconnect, instability, and something i’m always searching for. 
so i think back to my childhood for a reason or answer. 
i grew up moving around almost every 2 years. before i even had a chance to feel at home i’d be moved out; eventually i always expected us to move. i’d always thought this was advantageous - it made me good with change. but now i feel like im fundamentally lacking something. the idea of settling in an environment doesn’t make sense to my brain. there’s an emptiness/loneliness that comes about when i think of staying in one place.